I have been thinking about writing a blog post like this for quite a while. I don't want to glorify it, so I won't be adding cover photos or anything cute. This is just me, spilling my thoughts. Talking it all out like two friends sitting at a coffee shop. It is immensely nerve wracking to sit down at a computer and type out all of the thoughts I have been hiding away in journals, but I know that talking about it will not only help me, it could help others, and it will heal me as well. I'm not sure if I will publicly post about this. I probably won't even add a "swipe up" thing on my story. I feel like it is just equally important to me to write how I am feeling and finally get it off my chest.
I feel like I have been lying to the internet for the entire month of October. In reality, this past month has probably one of the hardest months of my life. On social media, everything looks perfectly fine! My makeup is still done, my hair is still curled, and I still go out - but mentally, that is a whole other story. I feel like if you follow me on twitter, you may have seen snippets of what I have been thinking lately, but thats still not even half of the emotional battle that I have been facing. I got a message the other day from a sweet girl who follows me, and she asked if I was okay. She had noticed patterns in my tweets, "finsta" post and how I would disappear from instagram days at a time. If you even know me at all you know I love social media. I have never viewed it as a toxic place, and I have always strived to cultivate a landing spot of encouragement, positive outlooks, and just overall happiness. Yet recently, I have found myself distancing from my favorite accounts, and just overall feeling burdened my the thought of posting a collaboration or picture, MUCH LESS A BLOG POST!!
I will probably get tons of messages about the situation, and honestly I couldn't pinpoint an exact thing that happened that caused me to lose it. College, leaving for college, car accidents, my job, my friends being gone, my burden with social media, relationships, and intentionally not trusting the Lord. I feel like all of those topics had something to do with it all and everything just naturally piled up. I felt like happiness was such a distant place for me to be. I feel like I'm just running on a treadmill trying to reach the other side of the room, when in reality I'm not going anywhere. Every morning waking up is physically draining, and don't even get me started on my sleep schedule! I truly and honestly think that my patterns of keeping everything in caught up with me, and after one thing snapped, my whole life began to unravel. I feel stupid for even thinking that the things I struggle with are worth writing a blog post about. I know that at the end of the day there are kids across the country fighting for their lives, there are new moms who just lost their babies, and people hurting way worse than I ever could. I just know that for most of us, the things we struggle with are in our heads, and fighting that can be a never-ending battle.
As I am writing this, I am happy to say that I am publicly announcing that I am striving to be the best possible version of myself. We are talking about 2016-2017 Brittany. The girl who made it her job to watch every sunset, to hug her family harder, to pour her love into others, and encourage those who need it. Thank you to every person who took time out of their day to send me a text message to encourage me. Thank you for believing in the person who I thought I lost. Thank you for sticking by me even when I feel like I'm just dreading by. You guys are the best. NO MORE LYING TO SOCIAL MEDIA!!! Life isn't perfect, but there are millions of things for me to be happy about and I'm going to start focusing on that! Thanks for reading. I pray that November is good to all of us!
If you are reading this and feel as if you resinate with the struggles I am going through, please feel free to reach out. I know that talking about what is hurting you is a hard thing to do, but I feel as if there is freedom in it as well. Opening up the parts of your heart that you keep hidden is such a big milestone in finding happiness. If you are curious about anything to read, I would suggest the book of the Bible, Job. Job lost everything. His home, family, money, etc, yet he CHOSE to trust the Lord and contiune to find joy. In a world like ours, we all could be a lot more like Job. Please know you are loved and prayed for!
Summer is my love language. Bold statement, I know, but everything is simpler in the summer time... At least for me! This past summer has been one of my favorites, and every memory I made will be a imprint on my brain that I will never forget. I traveled, spent all my free time with my amazing boyfriend, and every day I didn't work was spent well. As much as I hate to see the crisp air come, I know it is inevitable. I might as well make it stylish, right??? Despite how much I HATE the cold weather, the fall wardrobe is honestly one of my favorite seasons to dress for. I have started to prep my closet, pull things out of storage, and look for staple pieces to add to my closet. I have created a simple list of items I want to add this year, and it has helped my shopping budget so much! No more aimlessly walking around my favorite stores. I shop with a purpose now!
In this blog post, I will share with you six pieces that are budget-friendly AND can both be used for summer or fall! I decided to write this post because most students my age cannot afford to buy all new items for the change of the seasons. Hopefully through this blog post you will see all of the Fall outfits I have created with my summer wardrobe and try it for yourself!
All of these items are student based, so they are cheap, reusable, and SO TRENDY!
This is probably one of the most frequently asked question in DMs, and once I changed my feed, the messages started flowing in like crazy. As promised, I will be filming a YouTube video as well as this blog post just sharing how I edit my photos.
I first want to start out with how I used to edit my photos. This is how I filtered them for literal years! As far as I have been on Instagram I have used this same look. It is super easy, free, and it makes your photos POP with color!!
This is how my Instagram appeared before I changed my editing system.
As you all know from my social media, I work with a lot of brands. One of the main things that I think is cool about my blog and social media is that I love working with little brands. These companies are usually just small entrepreneurs with a big vision, and they look to me & my social media to get them a little bit more exposure. I absolutely adore these partnerships, and at the end of the day, I am able to make friendships as well. With that being said, I would like to introduce to you the first business feature on my blog, The Thrifty Sisters.
One of the major things I want to focus on in this blog is practicality. On my instagram account, 94% of my following is young women between the ages of 18-25. If you think about that age range, most of us are living at home, in college, or balancing between life and our jobs. We don't have money to flaunt! We need to use our money with intention, and most of the time that means picking the full tank of gas over the shoes that we really want that we just cant afford!
Ususally "Girl's Night Out" means that what happens with the girls, stays with the girls - But in this case, I HAD TO share with yall one of the best days I've ever had!
It started out so sweet. I didn't have to work, and Katie (here) slept over at my house the night before. We woke up the next morning, hung out, and leisurely got dressed for a whole day of adventure in my little home town. I showed Katie all my favorite boutiques and stores, and we simply just had a wonderful time together. Here are some pictures from the day. It was so lovely.
I get so many questions daily in my Instagram DM's about my hair that I thought it would be a great start to my blog and YouTube channel! If you didn't get a chance to watch the video, I will add the video below! In the blog post today I will be writing in more detail about the products themselves, where you can purchase/link, and the price of each item! Make sure to share the video with your friends and comment any questions you may have!
If you know anything about me, or follow me on ANY social media, you may know that I have a little (okay, so maybe a HUGE) obsession with clothes...
I don't like to call it probkem, I like to call it a passion. My mama may disagree though...
About The Author
Brittany Merrill is an eighteen year old who lives by the quote, "Life isn't perfect, but your outfit can be." She is passionate about Jesus, setting new trends, and french fries.